Lately, I have been feeling drained, sore and overall achy on all levels. We could chalk this up to the melting pot of current bad habits, stressors and astrological timing (if you adhere to that type of cosmology). There is also a beacon sounding from the depths within that is letting me know, I am not in balance with myself or in harmony with my surroundings. Red Flags go up and here I am contemplating how to improve.
Balance is a journey not a destination.
One insightful revelation, well at least to me, is that bringing balance to our lives, being physical, mental, spiritual or metaphysical (chakras if you will). Is a constant process of accessing the condition and making changes to the fulcrum of life. I personally have consistently forgotten this fact that makes life easier, and yet more frustrating at the same time. My nature is to fix it and be done, and nothing in a person’s life is ever so fixed that you can find balance and your life is always that way.
We can fall into recurring loops of good decisions / bad decisions that keep us rocking in the seas of chaos. Leading to feelings of hopelessness, nihilism or downright depression; as we always fight to make progress and find our balance. Sometimes the fights are against the very thing that is keeping us from falling into the abyss and sometimes the fights are against a overweight demon that brings the balance into a deep darkness, in any metaphorical or literal sense that applies.
Imagine yourself as a dog, in the cargo hold of a long flight. Being relocated to some new life or adventure. You feel the rocking of the plane, you feel the gravity increasing and decreasing as the plane changes elevation. You have no idea what direction your heading is, if up is truly the best action or lateral movements for that point.
This is very similar to our own lives and the balance we seek. When we spend too much time in our own mines analyzing the situation from our vantage point, we lose sight of the destination and the journey.
Think of a science experiment, where you have to balance two items on a scale by moving the fulcrum. The outside view of seeing the weighted changes as you move it, is much easier to adjust and can be done in fewer changes. If you were on one of the platforms, it would be much harder.
Minimal hours in a day, make good use
Apart from this trying to find balance, I took a harder look at my schedule and how I can gain some structure. This is good in order to have a solid foundation that will allow changes to be compared to a consistent normality.
I realized that I only have about 4 hours of quality time available for my family each night. That really isn’t much, but it is also quite a lot. It all depends on how it is used, and how I put it forward with purpose. One of my top priorities is spending more time with my spouse and kid, and I need to optimize time with them to feel the quality is there. I don’t want to throw away my dreams of travel, consciousness exploration and bringing new innovations to the world, but I could not live with being a bad companion, father, son.
My Solution? Attempting to optimize my life so when I am at a task, that is my task. I struggle with this often and it really sucks trying to improve, it is very very hard for me. We only have so many hours a day, and we all have various sleep requirements. (Which I am trying to reduce for myself)
If I can create a solid schedule, I can create a foundation to rebalance my life around. This is harder said than done. I will need to start saying No more often, pushing back on others and being disciplined. Discipline is not something I am strong with, I’m a Sag and I love freedom and no limits. This will be a journey that I will share. Until then, I will start small with secure a new foundation.
I would also like to hear how you all find balance and techniques you have found successful. Let’s share and see who we can help.
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